What the hell...
So yeah..hols have started. 3 weeks yo...and that didn't sound too long after I learnt of how long Shoba is gonna be on holiday; 4 months. MONTHS dude...
I actually think Shoba has turned schizophrenic. Really. Out of ecstasy maybe. There I was lounging in the heavenly, air-conditioned master bedroom, reading and writing alternatively, when she comes barging in...playing with her handphone..and then, with this shrill voice, which, I swear, was a perfect imitation of a parrot, saying, "HI!" and then continuing to hum the song that was blaring on the stereo...haih...she didnt stop...which wore down the effect of the coffee I had earlier. Never mind, i share your joy, shoba, i truly do. O n yes shoba is my sister by the way. AND. She's older than I. I am so not older than her ok. People keep saying that..god knows why. Actually, i know but never mind.
I am actually blabbering, aren't i? Haiz..i was just thinking, what was I thinkin when I borrowed all those books man. Like, STACKS of em. I love reading, but I'm not too sure about spending the whole 3 weeks READING. haha...but i know i'll be contented. heck my laptop is doomed, so i don't have much choice yo..right now, i'm using the home pc...wonder what's gonna happen to my documents. Pretty much, gone baby gone la..
I actually survived a week without the internet. And frankly, I think I actually had a life. And I had enough sleep. Sounds lame to get enough sleep when you're a teenager. But seriously, when you actually get that sleep, you'll be like freakin happy. And yeah, i totally despise technology as in mobile phone technology. I just ignore some calls. Silence the ting or whatever. Sorry for the callers, but I seriously need some time off man...like, smsing is not too bad. But answering calls, especially friendly ones...it's like...i appreciate it..but one hour? 2? dude, pls la..i won't be surprised if there's some kinda tumour growing in my head.
And then, this week, today...actually late last night, when I finally got online, I realised that I didn't actually MISS going online or anything. In fact, I was quite amused. I mean, I was not online, on facebook, for more than 10 minutes, and I already had 3 guys asking me out on a date. And behold, i was NOT flattered aite..i was like..wth man..do u even KNOW me? I mean, it seriously doesn't make sense for you to expect a girl to just say YES! to come meet you. It's like..shooting myself in the head or something. The last time I went out with a guy i barely knew we did things we shouldn't have done (never mind what those things were), and we become a couple. REVOLTING thoughtter 3 months since ending the relationship. The whole things was just absurd man. Still is, and always will be. So yeah, fat chance im gonna repeat the same mistake twice. No way dude...i rather literally shoot myself...ok maybe not..but no, im not going out on a blind date..
All i wish to say is that I'm pretty much done with all this dating, lovey dovey stuff. Really. Im sick of it. I don't really HATE it or anything, i just don't see the point in it. I find I fare better, less regrets, and i feel much better and content being alone. Of course, there's the danger of feeling lonely, cos trust me, it ain't nothing to be proud or happy of. But you compensate for it with other things like, doing things at your own pace. It's not like being single, alone. The same thing is true with even your girl friends. I recently had a bad experience with girlies and I am sort of...on my own right now. AND, as pathetic as that might sound, i don't feel the part.lols.seriously. It even surprises me as to how GOOD i feel. it's like i;m FREE...i can go to dinner whenever i like..not the ridiculous 6 PM meals...the late night hunger was killing me after all. I could actually sleep like shit witout worrying that this dude might say something and comment that i was being lazy. la, my freaking business la right what time i wana sleep, wat time i wana bathe, brood, dance, eat, watever la..so now, i find the leisure of doing it all at my own bloody pace..hehe...
I dont even have to explain myself to anyone. Like, during lunch, i get to sit at different tables and mix with different mates every day. Not like before, where I was tied to one effing gang, listening to them rambling on and on...and trying my best to respond. Cos if i don't respond, i think i'll offend them? So yeah, i just try to give my opinion. It almost seemed like a crime if I didnt say anything. And then, i realised that i was quite stressed because of it. It's like, i finally realised that i'm actually quite reserved, rather than outspoken, as most people are usually more inclined to thinking. I am outspoken when needed. Like while presenting a paper or something..other than that, i don't see the point of talking and socialising. Really. Small talk is so not my cup of tea. So, naturally, if i'm forced to talk when i so clearly don't want to, i either end up embarrassing myself by saying something stupid, or pausing for unnaturally long periods of time. Both has happened, considerable amount of instances. Not sure if im proud of those, though. Indifferent, i suppose.
So now, i'm pretty much like...a..one-man show...and i think i'm not done indulgin in it...the mind, is...a very powerful tool...changes the way you look at things...changes how u perceive your friend, a foe, if any...and just any stranger. I don't think i'll ever miss being in the society u noe..like, in a group...partying, talking, gossiping..i do love parties..but yeah, like i said, not when i'm forced to talk and socialise. Socialising..has proven itself to be so da very ambiguous in its nature, whenever it concerns me....
I actually think Shoba has turned schizophrenic. Really. Out of ecstasy maybe. There I was lounging in the heavenly, air-conditioned master bedroom, reading and writing alternatively, when she comes barging in...playing with her handphone..and then, with this shrill voice, which, I swear, was a perfect imitation of a parrot, saying, "HI!" and then continuing to hum the song that was blaring on the stereo...haih...she didnt stop...which wore down the effect of the coffee I had earlier. Never mind, i share your joy, shoba, i truly do. O n yes shoba is my sister by the way. AND. She's older than I. I am so not older than her ok. People keep saying that..god knows why. Actually, i know but never mind.
I am actually blabbering, aren't i? Haiz..i was just thinking, what was I thinkin when I borrowed all those books man. Like, STACKS of em. I love reading, but I'm not too sure about spending the whole 3 weeks READING. haha...but i know i'll be contented. heck my laptop is doomed, so i don't have much choice yo..right now, i'm using the home pc...wonder what's gonna happen to my documents. Pretty much, gone baby gone la..
I actually survived a week without the internet. And frankly, I think I actually had a life. And I had enough sleep. Sounds lame to get enough sleep when you're a teenager. But seriously, when you actually get that sleep, you'll be like freakin happy. And yeah, i totally despise technology as in mobile phone technology. I just ignore some calls. Silence the ting or whatever. Sorry for the callers, but I seriously need some time off man...like, smsing is not too bad. But answering calls, especially friendly ones...it's like...i appreciate it..but one hour? 2? dude, pls la..i won't be surprised if there's some kinda tumour growing in my head.
And then, this week, today...actually late last night, when I finally got online, I realised that I didn't actually MISS going online or anything. In fact, I was quite amused. I mean, I was not online, on facebook, for more than 10 minutes, and I already had 3 guys asking me out on a date. And behold, i was NOT flattered aite..i was like..wth man..do u even KNOW me? I mean, it seriously doesn't make sense for you to expect a girl to just say YES! to come meet you. It's like..shooting myself in the head or something. The last time I went out with a guy i barely knew we did things we shouldn't have done (never mind what those things were), and we become a couple. REVOLTING thoughtter 3 months since ending the relationship. The whole things was just absurd man. Still is, and always will be. So yeah, fat chance im gonna repeat the same mistake twice. No way dude...i rather literally shoot myself...ok maybe not..but no, im not going out on a blind date..
All i wish to say is that I'm pretty much done with all this dating, lovey dovey stuff. Really. Im sick of it. I don't really HATE it or anything, i just don't see the point in it. I find I fare better, less regrets, and i feel much better and content being alone. Of course, there's the danger of feeling lonely, cos trust me, it ain't nothing to be proud or happy of. But you compensate for it with other things like, doing things at your own pace. It's not like being single, alone. The same thing is true with even your girl friends. I recently had a bad experience with girlies and I am sort of...on my own right now. AND, as pathetic as that might sound, i don't feel the part.lols.seriously. It even surprises me as to how GOOD i feel. it's like i;m FREE...i can go to dinner whenever i like..not the ridiculous 6 PM meals...the late night hunger was killing me after all. I could actually sleep like shit witout worrying that this dude might say something and comment that i was being lazy. la, my freaking business la right what time i wana sleep, wat time i wana bathe, brood, dance, eat, watever la..so now, i find the leisure of doing it all at my own bloody pace..hehe...
I dont even have to explain myself to anyone. Like, during lunch, i get to sit at different tables and mix with different mates every day. Not like before, where I was tied to one effing gang, listening to them rambling on and on...and trying my best to respond. Cos if i don't respond, i think i'll offend them? So yeah, i just try to give my opinion. It almost seemed like a crime if I didnt say anything. And then, i realised that i was quite stressed because of it. It's like, i finally realised that i'm actually quite reserved, rather than outspoken, as most people are usually more inclined to thinking. I am outspoken when needed. Like while presenting a paper or something..other than that, i don't see the point of talking and socialising. Really. Small talk is so not my cup of tea. So, naturally, if i'm forced to talk when i so clearly don't want to, i either end up embarrassing myself by saying something stupid, or pausing for unnaturally long periods of time. Both has happened, considerable amount of instances. Not sure if im proud of those, though. Indifferent, i suppose.
So now, i'm pretty much like...a..one-man show...and i think i'm not done indulgin in it...the mind, is...a very powerful tool...changes the way you look at things...changes how u perceive your friend, a foe, if any...and just any stranger. I don't think i'll ever miss being in the society u noe..like, in a group...partying, talking, gossiping..i do love parties..but yeah, like i said, not when i'm forced to talk and socialise. Socialising..has proven itself to be so da very ambiguous in its nature, whenever it concerns me....
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